I am planning to start Exalted this weekend! Whoo~
That, of course, means I have a -ton- of preparation and reading to do, but that's okay! >.> Sorta. Anyway, I hope to get it started, whether I'm prepared or not.
Life's been hard, recently. Especially in the past few days. But.. I have loving friends who seem to be able to make me smile almost all the time. That's a nice thought. I hope I can get more rest, soon. That will make things better, too. My constant exhaustion is getting tiring. [ No pun intended ] I mean.. I'll come home from school and feel like sleeping. It sucks. I fall asleep all the time on the bus, and I can barely get up in the mornings.
I'm going to try getting to sleep earlier, tonight.
I hit my head earlier, hard. Then I went to sleep. It was a horridly angsty waste of time. I tell you. But my head still hurts, a little.
Beck and Scott are coming home tonight! Oh-eM-Gee! That's awesome. I miss them, a lot. It's not fair that they have to live like.. away. Scott was like a really fun awesome brother. And me and him are so much alike. Beck says she's surprised she fell for someone so much like her younger brother. Although.. me and Beck were never really that close. Not until recently, anyway. Before that the age difference was too drastic. That's an odd thought, really. I really didn't even talk to her that much, growing up. I think we were just both.. there, in eachother's lives. Although, I'm not sure if I can justifiably say that.. since I don't remember much of my childhood, 'n all. >.>
But, I can't wait for them to get home. I'm sure that Scott will either love, or Hate Budokai. He'd better love it. It's an amazing game. Like.. wow, amazing. -luff-
I want to see Eva tomorrow.. so we can watch lots of Gravitation~! I hope people aren't home at her place, then we can watch it there. And be all.. wow. <.<
I swear that hitting my head didn't do weird things to me. x.x;;
I should like.. go play something. Something like Metroid Prime Echoes.
1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before? Put someone else's needs in front of my own.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I don't think I'm keeping it very well. Maybe I am. It would help if I could remember it. o.o;;
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? I don't believe.
4. Did anyone close to you die? Not that I know of.
5. What countries did you visit? My own? :o
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004? Self-Discipline.
7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? June 8th - Because I'm in Love.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Reworking who I am.
9. What was your biggest failure? Certain Friendships..
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Not to my knowledge. My Stomach hated me a few times too many, though.
11. What was the best thing you bought? My piles upon piles of Anime and Manga~ :o
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Ai-ko~
13. Who made you appalled and depressed? Myself.
14. Where did most of your money go? Anime, Manga, Food, Gaming. The Usual.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Concerts. Ai-ko. <3
16. What song will always remind you of 2004? Out on my feet // Pilate
17. Compared to this time last year, you are: A completely different person. o.o;
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? Listen.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? Been selfish.
20. How will you be spending Christmas? This year? Home, as usual. o.o;
21. Did you fall in love in 2004? Well, maybe I fell in love long before? But I recognized it in '04.
22. How many one-night stands? O.o;
23. What was your favorite TV program? ER~ <3
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? Nope.
25. What was the best book you read? The Fuck-Up. The Perks of Being a Wallflower. The Fionavar Tapestry.
26. What was your greatest musical discovery? Pilate~ <3
27. What did you want and get? A sense of Self.
28. What was your favorite film of this year? Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I was 15, and I don't remember? Sat at home and had cake, I think. e.e;
30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Being less like I was.
31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004? My own.
32. What kept you sane? Towards the latter part, Ai-ko. For the rest, I wasn't sane.
33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Jude Law~
34. What political issue stirred you the most? The whole Gay marriage thing, I guess.
35. Who did you miss? Gavin..
36. Who was the best new person you met? Li-sama, Jason, and Lyr~ And.. countless, countless others. <3
37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004. ' Live. '
38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. Come in from the cold,
And wipe of the rain that bleeds into your bones.
It's a new Month, today. Second month of a new year.
I think that last year was one of the most influencial years of my life, so far. A lot happened. I built and broke friendships. Some of which I miss. I hurt people. I hurt myself. But.. I also grew, learned, and changed. I'm not who I was last year, anymore. I'm glad of that. Reading past entries has made me realize how silly I really was, then. I'm okay with that though. If everything that happened last year hadn't happened.. I wouldn't be who I am. I wouldn't hold the experience I now do. I wouldn't have the bonds I've made.
I've made one strong bond. I'm especially glad of that. Through thick and thin, hell and high waters, I think it was meant to happen. I don't know whether I believe in fate, or not.. but I think that somethings were meant to happen. Things happen for a reason. I'm glad that happened. I'm glad a lot happened.
I had a wonderful summer. And.. school and other things have been making me take for granted something I really shouldn't. We'll pull through. We always do.
All in all, last year wasn't as good as it could have been.. but I don't regret it. And I don't think I ever will.