Evee was here t'day! * Nods * Even if we were stuck in a stalled car for four hours.. it's all good. I want her to come over again.. but I doubt she'll be able to tomorrow.
My brother was also here today. It didn't end very happily.. that's all I'll say.
' You shouldn't let you mind wander, it's too small to be out there all alone. '
o-O;;
Sorry. I just.. like that quote.
* Sways to... Armageddon. It's the End of the World song in the End of Evangelion. * It's a very.. happy sounding song for what it is.. The Lyrics aren't.. but the music is. Funny thing is.. it suits the movie almost perfectly. I want to see that movie again. I want to see it all again. I want Eva to see it, too. So.. Eva will come here, and watch it with me. All of it. I gotta go out and rent the... -four- movies... Ohmygosh! That means I get to see the Directors Cut of the final episodes! Yush! I've been waiting for an excuse to get that! Sconce! * Cheers! * Go-Evee-ko-'n-her-sheltered-from-Evangelion-'til-now-so-I-have-an-excuse-to-watch-it-all-over-again-ness! >_>;; Not that I needed an excuse.. or anything. * Shakes his head *
I had a random Nose-bleed today. It scared me. I was just sitting there in the cafeteria, and I wise wiping my nose on my hand a lot.. then Josh looked up wondering why, and he was like, ' Dude, your nose is bleeding! '.. so I wiped my nose on my hand.. and looked at it.. and my hand was already covered in blood. o_o;; I ran over and got some napkins.. and at this point it was pouring down. So I plugged it, and walked over to Evee, who was in the line.. and it seemed to stop by the time I got to her.. But it scared me! That was a lot of blood! Of course, I was accused as a pervert. But.. that's not it, I swear. Those of you who don't understand, read this.
Anime Law #40 - Law of Nasal Sanguination
When sexually aroused, males in Anime don't get erections, they get nosebleeds. No one's sure why this is, though... the current theory suggests that larger eyes means smaller sinuses and thinner sinus tissue. Females don't get nosebleeds, but invariably get one heck of a blush along the cheeks and across the nose, suggesting a lot of bloodflow to that region.
Get it now?
TV's out. Oh well.. don't watch too much of it anyway.
We have Friday off. * Cheers * I'm glad. I like long breaks. We had a power outage in school today, and apparently f it had lasted 20 minutes longer we would have gotten the rest of the day off. But that was okay that we didn't.. I had a reasonably good day. Minus this bruise on my arm, of course, because it hurts a lot. >_<;; * Frowns *
Now.. I'm off. But I leave you with the lyrics to the End of The World. * Ponders * I wonder if the End of the World would have lyrics. * Wanders off, thinking. *
Armageddon // The End of Evangelion ( VOX ) How many times must we start again
The creation of the world from beginning to end
What will it take before we learn
We gotta wake up now 'n' show some concern
What will the future hold
How many untold stories will be told
Just what will the future bring
How many species of birds will have a song to sing
Man 'n' man can't even get on
'N' man 'n' womans been at war for far too long
Superior race all this black 'n' white vision
Catholic. Muslim. There's too many religions
Too much hatred too much greed
Ignorant people pollute the air that we breathe
We've gotta wake up now before it's much too late
Hungry people need food on their plate
People being killed for just a few pence
Can you justify that 'cause it makes no sense to me
You're growing up much too fast
The destruction of mankind - how long will it last
Perfect - that's what I'm striving to be
The next best thing will do for me
I do my best you disagree
Holier - than - thou holier - than - me
Commiting crimes with no remorse
As good as gold now an evil force
One word description is a dis
You lick a boy down for his bag of cheese 'n' onion crisp
And you don't even stop to think
Whatever happened to the dinosaurs could make us all extinct
I'm being judged by the clothes that I wear
We gotta educate those with a grudge to bear
But I'm content to a certain extent
You're condemned for life it's too late to repent
Inna - most beauty such a terrible waste
Caught between a rock and a hard place.
Be judged according to what you've done
Live this life the next is a better one
Eat the fruit from the tree of life
'Cause if you live by the sword... you'll die by the knife
How great and wonderful are your days
How right and true are your ways...
No more death, grief, crying or pain
'Cause only the good things will remain...
Heed my words 'cause what I'm saying is true
Treat them exactly as they treated you -
Wipe away the tears from your eyes
Be proud, lift your head up - reach for the skys.
Condemned for what you did to them
Now see how quick they fall to worship him
There's a place in my heart that makes me understand
Prepared and ready like a bride dressed to meet her husband
Treat life as a learning process
I said turn right so you took a sharp left
Wake up and we'll all sleep peacefully
The sun shines but it still seems bleak to me
You tell a lie and convince me it's the truth
I'm well mannered yet you still call me uncouth
I believe that there's got to be much more
I hope I'm ready when death comes knockin' on my door
Mabye tonight mabye as I sleep
It can drive you mad if you think too deep
But don't have a breakdown 'cause I called you a clown
You threw a punch 'n' missed I killed you with a kiss
What on earth will you do then
The hour of your death amen
'N' all the prejudice that I've sustained
I know it sounds funny but I just can't stand the pain
Six foot below
Reap what you sow
Grim without grief
Sad without sorrow
I am officially going to start posting every day again. Sorry about that break.. but I lost my computer.. and then had to catch up on so many things. >_<;; But.. I think now.. maybe I can get back into everything.
Finished an English Presentation today.. did okay. Not too good, though. Also got my report card back. I'm not ahppy with anything but my english mark. I need to stop slacking. This last term.. there was just too much happening.. I lost motivation and hope. Not that I've gotten them back.. but I am going to work harder.. or my marks will get worse. And I don't want that.
Finished The Perks of Being a Wallflower.. and it was the best book I've ever read. I changed to. That book... changed me. I can't really explain it.. but it did. I strongly suggest it.. to everyone. I even suggested it to my English teacher. * Nods *
I don't know why.. but I really like Hoobastank right now. * Shrugs * I never really liked them before. Not that I -didn't- like them.. they just never caught my ear. I like them now, though. And here's one of my favourite songs.
The Reason // Hoobastank I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You
and the reason is You
and the reason is You
and the reason is You
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
Missing my computer -so- much.. Not so much missing the computer as I am the people I communicate to over it. I miss you Lisa.. I'm drowning. I need.. help. * Le Sigh *
Three days since my last post... I'm so out of date. >_<;; I liked writing everyday.. Gawd.. I hope dad -looks- at my computer sometime soon. I don't even think he's thought about it.
Okay, here's the deal. My computer at home died. It's all.. dead-like. >_<;; Dad is s'posed to be looking at it today.. but.. I'm not even sure if he'll let me back on it. I can only hope, eh? So.. I denno.. Maybe until I get allowed back on.. there will only be one post every two days. * Le sigh * That's why I missed yesterday. Although.. I wrote one, only it was on paper.
Ee! Gotta go!
So hopefully I can get on sometime soon! * Skittles off *
I am now officially accepting applications. So all you people who read this.. get writing! I am not open for posts yet. Not until I get enough characters sent in. So if you want it to open soon, send your Appies!
Here's the addie again.
http://descendentsofdarkness.cjb.net
I was right, you know. Last night when I went to bed, I couldn't walk to my room. I stumbled a lot. Sad thing is, I didn't sleep. Not even a wink. Yet.. I was too exhausted to get out of bed until noon. I hate sleeping in. >_<;; Baka Mortal.
*Shrugs * I'm cold. And I have a Head ache.
I'ma leave this. Then I'ma leave.
How You Remind Me // Nickelback Never made it as a wise man
I couldn't cut it as a poor man stealin'
Tired of livin' like a blind man
I'm sick of sight without a sense of feelin
And this is how you remind me
This is how you remind me
Of what I really am
This is how you remind me
Of what I really am
It's not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
This time I'm mistaken
For handing you a heart worth breakin'
I've been wrong, I've been down
Been to the bottom of every bottle
These five words in my head
Scream "Are we having fun yet?"
Yet?, Yet?, Yet?, no no
It's not like you didn't know that
I said I love you and I swear I still do
It must have been so bad
Cause livin' with me must have damn near killed you
This is how you remind me
Of what I really am
This is how you remind me
Of what I really am
It's not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
This time I'm mistaken
For handing you a heart worth breakin'
I've been wrong, I've been down
Been to the bottom of every bottle
These five words in my head
Scream "Are we having fun yet?"
Yet?, Yet?, Yet?, no no
Never made is as a wise man
I couldn't cut it as a poor man stealing
And this is how you remind me
This is how you remind me
This is how you remind me
Of what I really am
This is how you remind me
Of what I really am
It's not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
This time I'm mistaken
For handing you a heart worth breakin'
I've been wrong, I've been down
Been to the bottom of every bottle
These five words in my head
Scream "Are we having fun yet?"
Yet?, Yet?, Yet?, no no
Where are you Lisa? This time is meant to find out what makes Mortal a Happy Mortal.. but nothing seems to have been done towards that. It's been the same false happiness as I've had for the past year and a half of my life. I want to work at it. But I can't ask that of you. Not with everything happening in -you're- life.
Gawd..I've been sent reeling back into this phase of self hatred.. self loathing. And this all began by me voicing my opinion on how I don't like the way some people dress. Will I be forgiven? Will this be told to the one who no longer exists in my world. Will it make it worse between us..?
Too many questions.. to little to keep my mind off.
Stupid Space Pirates! Stupid them and their Killing my power suit! Now I only got a pistol! A -pistol-! against an entire mothership of aliens. Oh joy.
( This rant was brought to you by a couple of hours spent playing Metroid that should've been spent studying. >_<;; )
Yes folks, that's right. I've made a pathetic attmept at studying.. but now.. mnn.. I am going off to -actually- study..
Gawd Demnit! I need to remember to post everyday! I almost forgot today.
* Shrugs *
I dun have to get up tomorrow! * Cheers * Go Lazy Mortal-chan! I do have to study... and write a prep-essay.. but I am not too worried. I just need to buckle down and study. * sighs * If not.. Lisa'll beat the stuffing outta me.
>_<;;
Blah! I hate exams. I hate them all. I'll stab them to life, if they don't watch it! * Growls *
Anyway. I'm going to go. I need to study more..... or.. or... play Metroid. But in doing so.. I'll be learning Math.. because of all the.. physics........ and.... aliens.... and.. Oh, come up with your own rationalizations! * Stomps off *
I personally like the first one better. I'm innocent.. I -swear-.. >_<;;
Anyway. I never came back last night. Well I came online, but I was to lazy to post. So sue me. I saw the matrix Revlutions last night. -Good- Movie. It was the best one. If you haven't seen them, I suggest you do.
Oi.. I've a lot of homework to do today.. Then.. blah. -School- tomorrow. * Sighs * At least I have wednesday off and thursday and friday morning off. Mnn.. then I have my exams. Gawd damn stupid exams. I'm really worried, now. I didn't do my essay this weekend.. or any of my Math. Speaking of which.. I'm gunna go do those..
* Sighs * I'll maybe come back and post later. -Maybe-. Don't cross your fingers.
* Giggles * I'm no religious type of person.. but any excuse fer presents and a Big supper is very worth celebrating. Mmn.
Got a few cool things. Metroid: Zero Mission. -Great- game for the GBA. I mean.. I fell in love with the original as it is, but this is so much better. It's the very frist one remade, with a whole lot new features. Very good game. I suggest looking into it i f you're a Metroid Fan.
Also got the Jet cd, ' Get Born '. Gotta love Jet.. I mean.. they're Aussies! * giggles * Love 'em.
Got a load of candy, and a new shirt.. 's all good. Only.. I didn't get the book I wanted. The one I've been wanting for a long time, now. ' The Perks of Being a Wallflower '.. I really want it.. * Whines * Guess I'll just have to save my Money.. >_<;;
I may post later, when I get online to chat with Lisa. In fact.. I most likely will.
Oh.. oh! By the way, thank you very much, Eva, for the link you gave me last night! * Giggles * They really -are- good. >_>;; I'll shush now.
I am to leave you with this, possibly my favourite song by Jet, until I come back tonight.
Cold Hard Bitch // Jet Gotta leave town
Got another appointment
Spent all my rent
Girl you know I enjoyed it
Ain't gonna hang around till there's nobody dancing
I don't wanna hold hands and talk about our little plans, alright!
Cold hard bitch
Just a kiss on the lips
And I was on my knees
I'm waiting, give me
Cold hard bitch
She was shakin' her hips
That's all that I need
Gonna check her out
She's my latest attraction
Gonna hang around
Wanna get a reaction
Gonna take her home cause she's over romancing
Don't wanna hold hands and talk about her plans alright!
Cold hard bitch
Just a kiss on the lips
And I was on my knees
I'm waiting give me
Cold hard bitch
She was shakin' her hips
And I that was all that I need
I'm waiting give me
Cold hard bitch
Just a kiss on the lips
And I was on my knees
Cold hard bitch
Just a kiss on the lips
And I was on my knees
I'm waiting give me
Cold hard bitch
She was shakin' her hips
And I was all that I need
I'm waiting give me
Cold hard bitch
Just a kiss on the lips
And I was on my knees
I'm waiting give me
You know, today I was asked only one question
One question all day
Do you know what that was?
"Do you want this supersized?"
Come to think of it, I'd like the whole fucking world supersized
Supersize guns
Supersize planes
Supersize satellites
Think about how many more channels you could get with supersized satellites
Supersize sales
How do you supersize a sale?
How about we supersize 3rd World debt relief?
Supersize love
Supersize honesty
Supersize government
Come to think of it
Actually, nah, let's not supersize the government
Supersize death
Can I have a supersized death?
I'd like to supersize a death with a Coke
You know what we need?
Some back-up singers, hook up like a little jingle
It's all right, it's sooner or later
Kinda like that
Supersize the song
Really, if we supersize the record, we'll sell more records, it's a supersized record
That is, after all, our ambition
Fake lighting flashes over the skyline
A deer in your headlights
So gun it, gun it, gun it, gun it, gun it
We're singing songs about 21st century living
If hate's in your heart, man
You'll take what you're given
Ambition, ambition's a tricky thing
It's like riding a unicycle on a dental floss tightrope over a wilderness of razor blades
Ambition can backfire
Ambition means more
Ambition means faster
Ambition means better
I wonder if you can sup-..
Can you supersize ambition?
Does that make you ambitious if you supersize ambition?
Around here, our ambition hurts more than it helps
Around here our ambition throws an non-perishable item in a donation bin at Christmas
And it pats itself on the fucking back because it thinks it's done something decent
It's all right, it's sooner or later
Yeah, we're supersizing ambition
Make no mistake about it
Our ambition will televise the revolution
And it'll sell more fucking commercial spots than the Super Bowl, the Olympics, the World Series, and the Tragedy Du Jour
combined
We're supersizing
We're supersizing the record
'Cause we're ambitious
Fake lighting flashes over the skyline
A deer in your headlights
So gun it, gun it, gun it, gun it, gun it
We're singing songs about 21st century living
If hate's in your heart, man
You'll take what you're given
If hate's in your heart, man
You'll take what your given
G'day.
Four days off, now. I really need it. My complete and total lack of sleep is really getting at me.
Exams start in exactly seven days. If I were you, I'd be rooting for me.
When I counted up my demons
saw there was one for every day
with the good ones on my shoulders
I drove the other ones away
so if you ever feel neglected
and if you think that all is lost
I'll be counting up my demons, yeah
hoping everything's not lost
when you thought that it was over
you could feel it all around
and everybody's out to get you
don't you let it drag you down
'cos if you ever feel neglected
if you think that all is lost
I'll be counting up my demons, yeah
hoping everything's not lost
if you ever feel neglected
if you think that all is lost
I'll be counting up my demons, yeah
hoping everything's not lost
singing out ah ah ah yeah
ah ah yeah
ah ah yeah
and everything's not lost
so come on yeah
ah ah yeah
come on yeah
and everything's not lost
ah ah yeah
ah ah yeah
ah ah yeah
and everything's not lost
so come on yeah
ah ah yeah
ah come on yeah
come on yeah
ah ah yeah
come on yeah
and everything's not lost
sing out yeah
ah ah yeah
come on yeah
everything's not lost
come on yeah
ah ah yeah
sing out yeah
and everything's not lost
1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
' Amicar -- a most holy spirit ( or another name... ' ---> Dictionary of the Angels.
2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
...Air? Or the chair.. o-O;
3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?
M*A*S*H*
4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is:
11:46?
5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?:
..Tch.. 11:45
6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?:
Mom 'n Dad downstairs laughing at M*A*S*H*..
7: When did you last step outside? what were you doing?:
Walking home from the bus his afternoon.
8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at?:
Mnn.. Lyrics.. I think.
9: What are you wearing? :
My brown pants that I never wear in public, and a grey Toy Factory t-shirt, since my clothes are all in the wash.
10: Did you dream last night?
I think so. Something weird.. as usual.
11: When did you last laugh?
Laugh.. forever ago. At least saturday, I assume, if then. Giggle, though? Maybe this afternoon, and there -is- a difference.
12: What is on the walls of the room you are in?:
Crappeh old wallpaper, along with a but of small poster and stuff of my father's.
13: Seen anything weird lately?:
Mnn.. not sure.. Wait.. my room is -clean-! That's really weird.
14: What do you think of this quiz?:
I denno.. it's weird. There's another weird thing I've seen. This.
15: What is the last film you saw?:
Erm... Digimon: The Movie!
16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?:
Not sure.. a lot of anime, and lots of games. Especially Thousand Arms.
17: Tell me something about you that I don't know:
At the moment.. my eyes have yellow mingled with the green.. o-O;;
18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?:
How people think.. * Shrugs *
19: Do you like to dance?:
Not really.
20: George Bush: is he a power-crazy nut case or some one who is finally doing something that has needed to be done for years?:
Baka.. 'nuff said.
21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?:
Rei.. Definately Rei. Or.. Farah.
21: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?:
Reid, Shinji, Kaworu, Jet... Jet is pretty. Pwyll... so many other names. * Giggles *
22: Would you ever consider living abroad?:
Of course I would. In fact.. I think I will live abroad. * Nods *
23: Will you pass on this survey?:
Well.. it'll be on my Blog.. * Shrugs *
With You // Linkin Park I woke up in a dream today
To the cold of the static and put my cold feet on the floor
Forgot all about yesterday
Remembering I'm pretending to be where I'm not anymore
A little taste of hypocrisy
And I'm left in the wake of the mistake slow to react
Even though you're so close to me
You're still so distant
And I can't bring you back
It's true the way I feel
Was promised by your face
The sound of your voice
Painted on my memories
Even if you're not with me
I'm with you
You, now I see, keeping everything inside
with you
You, Now I see, Even when I close my eyes
I hit you and you hit me back
We fall to the floor the rest of the day stands still
Fine line between this and that
When things go wrong I pretend the past isn't real
I'm trapped in this memory
And I'm left in the wake of the mistake slow to react
So even though you're close to me
You're still so distant
And I can't bring you back
It's true the way I feel
Was promised by your face
The sound of your voice
Painted on my memories
Even if you're not with me
I'm with you
You, now I see, keeping everything inside
with you
You, Now I see, Even when I close my eyes
With you
You, now I see, keeping everything inside
with you
You, Now I see, Even when I close my eyes
No, no matter how far we've come
I can't wait to see tomorrow
No, no matter how far we've come I
I can't wait to see tomorrow
With you
You, now I see, keeping everything inside
with you
You, Now I see, Even when I close my eyes
With you
You, now I see, keeping everything inside
with you
You, Now I see, Even when I close my eyes
I wanna live life, and never be cruel,
I wanna live life, and be good to you.
I wanna fly, never come down,
And live my life,
And have friends around.
We never change, do we?
We never learn, do we?
So I wanna live in a wooden house,
I wanna live life, always be true,
I wanna live life, and be good to you,
I wanna fly, and never come down,
And I live my life, and have friends around,
We never change do we? No, no,
We never learned to leave,
So I wanna live in a wooden house,
Making more friends would be easy,
Oh and I don't have a soul to save,
Yes, and I sin every single day,
We never change, do we?
We never learned to leave,
So, I wanna live in a wooden house,
Making more friends would be easy,
I wanna live where the sun comes out.
That's me! I'm such a geek. I mean.. today, Astro Boy came on and I was sucked into watching it. At the moment, the Digimon Movie is on. And I'm now sucked into watching that. v.v;; I can't help it! I like the original Digimon series. * Pouts * So live with it!.. Go Izzy! >_>;;
Mnn.. what else. Not much else to post, really. Oh, of course my last post was -technically- on April Third, meaning I'd have missed a day, but I didn't get home until after midnight.. and by my rules, it wasn't the third, because I hadn't slept, and the sun hadn't come up. So.. to all you people out there, I didn't miss a day, so don't say I did.
Go Kabutarimon! * Giggles *
Oh.. erm.. Eheh.. heh. * Wallows in his Geeky-ness * But I can't help it. It's -good-. Nobody can riddicule me... * Pouts *
Something I do not. It seems now, that I rarely belong in any groups. I belong with two... maybe three or four people, and as it would turn out, one of these people, one I care about a lot.. always ends up spiting me. I always give reason, too. Perfectly valid reasons, for her to not even spare a glance at me. To not even want to look upon me. On a day made especially for Mel.. one made to just make her happy, all I could do is think about my lose.. my pain, my sorrow. I truly am a Selfish Bastard. They all have every right and reason to feel the way they do. And I have no right, or reason to feel how I do. It's ironic, if you think about it.
All I can seem to do, anymore, is backtrack. Things seem to show that they may turn up.. that they may improve, but you know, I always screw it up. I always do something that causes everything that I've done for improvement to just be blown out of the water. And then that familiar cloud of hatred and spite flows between, and then I lose sight of her. * Sighs * I have no right to rant, though. So I'm going to stop. If things are to get better, then I'll haear word. I can't do anything, anymore, but wait. I'm far to scared to make first contact, now. And I will be, for a long time. My Shinji complax has been thrust into overdirve, as now, even small crowds of people are unwelcoming.. especially the ones that used to call me their friend. No more, however. And I can't tell if it will ever go back.. But I'm waiting. Waiting.
That's me. I seem to have a bit of a habit going here, with P words. Dun know why. Ah, today I got back my ever-awaited English Essay. Got a 13.5 outta 15. Not bad.. but I could have done better. Of course I -could- have. Also took that Math test today. I don't think I did -too- bad.. I hope that it's reasonably good, in fact. If it is, there is a big possiblity that DoD will open before it's April 17th deadline. We can only hope, right? I am planning to get the whole story redone and completed this weekend, and hopefully also get my characters done, too. I will soon be accepting applications, so I can get some of the teacher spots filled, not that they necessarily -need- to be filled. But, yeah. A couple of people are already working on their characters right now, so I'm rather Happy. Thanks you guys! * Snuggles *
* Frowns * My nose is itchy.
Oh, to anyone who knos of her existence, wish Becka, my sister, a Happy Birthday. It was actually on monday, but since we didn't have any money, so we couldn't do anything much, we pushed off the celebration up untnil today. She's twenty-one, now. A whole six years older than me. All my siblings are a lot older than me. All two of them. >_>;; Jon's four years older, and well Scott, the sibling to be, basically, is -seven- years older. * Pouts * -Not Fair-.
Mnn.. It's getting late, and this is the second time I typed this. I had a little more, but I'm lazy. So sue me. * Shrugs * Gotta finish my Family Living homework, and finish watching ER. I would have done it early, but got sucked into playing my DragonLance game for Nintendo. Odd game, that is... but addictive. * Nods * I still like it. Anywhy... -right-... I was taking my leave. I better take this one, before it runs off, and I'm stuck here another half an hour. Till tomorrow.